At the moment, I am surrounded by my 4 grandsons and thinking about falling in love again.
How does all this love energy work together? I have no idea, and I am trying to figure it out.
I’ve been keeping a secret to almost everyone in my life. I met a man last Saturday night who is enlightened, more evolved than most men, dances tango as elegantly and as passionately anyone I have ever danced with, plays tangos on his guitar beautifully, is looking for a mate, makes love like an angel, and maybe is falling for me. Besides that, we have a strong connection with our professional work. More importantly, we want to make a relationship.
What man puts it out there like that to a woman? What woman could walk away from this man without serious consideration.
Oh, and I forgot to say that he lives in Montreal six months out of the year; winter is spent in Los Angeles where he hangs out with his two adult children and grandchildren.
Long distance relationships. They are a plague. They mostly don’t work. How do we do this and keep the emotional connection? I tried it before. It lasted 7 months, which is pretty good, I think. But now I’m older and wiser and have settled into singleness with joy – finally.
I didn’t get enough face time with this man. He’s complicated in a good way. I’m settled in a good way. But we are both looking for companionship. And I think we could be right for each other.
I’m wrestling with how to do this and we have just left each other. Do I really want to fall in love again? Big question after all this work on myself. I think I do but I don’t know if I can.
I thought I would never fall in love again after my last relationship. After almost 4 and a half years of his running away and coming back, I ended it. He broke my heart and my heart is still broken. I think I’m on the mend and then I’m not. My therapist would say: “Sit with it, be with it, let the emotions embrace you.”
I am and I’m trying. In the meantime, I have enough testosterone around me to last a lifetime. Tonight I’m going out to dinner with my 2 sons and their wives to celebrate family.
I’m full of joy.